"Mommy is Fragile!"

I really want to work on my goal of making my blog more of a daily life journal.  We never really do anything that exciting or out of the ordinary, but I like to focus on the things each day that bring us joy and show the Lord's loving hand in our life.

That said, I don't always feel joy...in fact, I have been a complete wreck this pregnancy!!  Especially lately.  I keep meaning to write about it because I like having things about my pregnancies documented...even the negatives.  I was probably a little moody with my other pregnancies, but NOTHING like this one....and it had better go away when this baby arrives!!!  I cry over everything, the littlest things annoy me like crazy, and I can snap in and out of a good/bad mood faster than the weather changes in Utah!!  I have ZERO patience with anything or anyone.  It's been really rough....and I can't even imagine how my poor husband and children feel about it!  One night Cameron kept kicking me under the table, and it was driving me SO nuts and Nate told Cameron, "Don't bug Mommy right now, she's fragile."  Haha, my poor family.  I promise Nate every single day that I can't help it!!  It's almost like I can step out of my body and watch myself acting completely insane, but I honestly can't control it!  The other day, Nate was telling me how much he wants a 4th baby (I've been on the fence about that topic lately...obviously!!), and I said, "Are you sure you want to go through this again....I'll probably be even worse!!"  But then he snuggled our kids on his lap and said, "Of course...it's worth it to end up with one of these!"  Wow, I married a wonderful, PATIENT man!!

Anyway, I'm finding that keeping busy is the best way to keep myself from snapping!  My new cleaning schedule has been working out well...I'm not perfect at it, but I've definitely gotten a LOT more done and stayed on top of tasks better than I would be doing without it.  This morning I piled the kids into the van and ran errands....grocery store for milk & fruit, we stopped at Banburry Cross for free donuts from Aunt Patty, and then we went to see Daddy at work for a minute.  Nate works a lot of 10-hour shifts this week since he's taking Saturday off (for a VERY exciting reason that I will write about then!).

Cam had school today.  He had a good few months, but lately he's been misbehaving, and of course now when his teachers have to have "chats" with me about him, I go home and bawl like a baby because that's what my emotions do right now!!  I had lots of chats with his teachers last Fall and was obviously discouraged by my son's bad behavior, but was over it in a few seconds.  Aahh, pregnancy!!!

Cameron and his friend Savannah have been obsessed with Savannah's kite the past 2 days....and boy, those two kids can RUN!!  I think they ran for over an hour straight last night!!  I LOVE watching my children get their energy out like that, and needless to say, Cam ate huge dinners and collapsted into bed last night and tonight!  Kids & The Great Outdoors really belong together!!

So I had lots of fun knocks at my door today.
1- The Maintenance man showed up and installed a brand new faucet in our kitchen sink.  So Shiny!!  Sometimes renting isn't so bad...
2- Chocolate cookies from Kristi (I've had SO much junk food today!!)
3- Hand-me-downs for Roo from our awesome downstairs neighbor, who just moved in...and I am growing to love her more every day.  We sort of clicked, and immediately have that feeling of having each other's backs, which is sometimes hard to find in a friendship. 

Wow, this is long!!  Sitting down and writing (typing) at the end of the day is good for me though...it relaxes me.  I'll end with a few cutie pictures, and then I'm signing off to read my scriptures and get this cranky, tired body to BED!

My kids...apparently practicing for a future in bobsledding or the luge...???  They're so serious, this picture makes me laugh!  Pretty good form, right?