TT: He Lives

Last week was a really hard week for me.  Probably one of the toughest weeks I've ever had, aside from maybe at the beginning of my mission.  It was really awful, and I hated every long minute of it.  But I know my Heavenly Father and my Savior love me.  I know this, because even though nothing has changed circumstantially....the reasons for my fear and sadness and anguish are still present.  But I now feel peace and love around me, instead of those dark, horrible feelings of doubt.  And I know that I feel peace and love because of my Savior.  Because of prayer.  Because of the Priesthood.  Because of righteousness.  Because of patience.  Because of faith.  Because He Lives. 

The Lord has a plan for this family.  I let my knowledge and vision of that plan waver a little last week, and that's why I was so overcome with fear of man.  The Lord let me struggle to regain my footing, and I'm grateful for that because now my knowledge is even more sure than it was before.  What a wonderful gift and blessing.

Last week I was reading a talk from October's General Conference.  In one of the talks, this scripture was shared, and as I read it, I was filled with peace, and it was one of the many things that helped lift me back up.  In this verse, the Lord gives a powerful promise to Joseph Smith (and in turn, all of us, His children).  It says, "Let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed." - Doctrine & Covenants 123: 17.

 I have been letting this verse run through my head over and over for several days now.  Nate and I still don't know the Lord's exact plan for our family, even though we are literally begging the Lord every day for some guidance and direction. Our answers might come next week or they might come next year.  We don't know, and that doesn't matter.  We just know they will come.  The Lord WILL cause miracles to happen on our behalf.  We know He will.  That's what we DO know.  Because really, they are already happening.  Miracles.  Every single day, all around us.  I see it in these 2 faces every day.

"Fear not what man can do, for God shall be with you forever and ever." -Doctrine and Covenants 122:9.