There are days where I wish more than ANYTHING that I could curl up in bed and just read and sleep and NOT have anyone need anything from me for just a little while!!
Maybe that time will come. Eventually. Just not right now. Right now I am a wife of an exhausted working student and a mother to 3 beauties, and this is my work. Day in and day out. I keep going, one day at a time.
A few days ago, I was about to my breaking point. I kept thinking, "Mom takes care of the kids. Mom takes care of the house. Mom takes care of the husband. WHO takes care of Mom???" Then I had a distinct thought: The Lord takes care of Mom!! It's so true. I am SO well taken care of. I am happy and loved and safe and healthy. The Lord takes care of me.
I. am. honored. to serve my family and love them and be their everything. I don't deserve Nate, Cam, Roo & Cwaire. But for some reason, the Lord has given them each to me, and I love them so so much.
A list of a few little things that make me smile when I feel like I can't go on:
*Pumpkin cookies. I bake them way too much.
*Cameron saying things like, "Abra-Cadabra, make the craisins disappear!" as he eats his craisins and he calls me "Momison", like Allison.
*Mom: Cam, you're funny.
Cam: I am? Are you going to write that on your blog?
HAHA yes I am.
*Roo walking around on her tippy-toes and saying, "Look at me, I'm Minnie Mouse!"
*Claire. Just Claire. All of her.
*The library. I love being surrounded by books. We go a lot.
*That blissful moment when Nate opens the door and walks in. He's home!
*Having complete strangers come up and tell me that they have never seen a little boy be nicer to his little sisters than Cam.
*Strawberry limeades from Sonic.
*Playing the "I Love You" game every night with my family before prayers.
*My faith. My hope. My relationship with my Savior.
Mini-Nate all ready for school.
7 comments:
OK, that first picture is SO funny! Love the box/car...
I love the Orange Cream Slushes from Sonic!! :) Soooo yummy!!
Just to add to the "maybe one day you'll get your rest." It's true... my sister and I are growing up. I'm basically on my own with school, work, finances, and social life. My little sister is graduating this school year and will be headed to college next fall. My parents are having to find things to do to preoccupy their time with! It's been amazing to see the time my parents spend with each other, how many adventures and crazy things they're accomplishing now that it's just the two of them! They're even thinking about down-sizing with a home!! I know I'm not a mom, but from observing my mom and my dad, I know your day of relaxation will come :) Just like you said, the Lord gave you this calling to be a mother, just like my mom is. It's crazy now, but your kids will grow up fast and soon, it'll just be you and Nate. :) I know you enjoy being with your kids, so don't give up! :) They're appreciate EVERYTHING you did one day!!
I love this post. Even though I just have one child, I've been feeling the same way lately. Your words are so true- and I had never thought of it that way before. Thanks for sharing Becca!
I SO needed to hear this today! Thank you for posting it! With #3 around the corner for me I do know that my already busy days are just going to get SO much busier - I need to turn to the LORD for strength and energy to meet the demands of my family!!
On a lighter side - a strawberry limeade sounds intriguing and delicious - wish you could send me one!
James was EVER so excited to see Cam and Roo dressed up as Venom and Spider-Man, I'm telling you our kids would have an absolute BALL together!
Finally, I've said it before and I'll say it again... Cam is going to BREAK SOME SERIOUS HEARTS when he grows up! That boy is GORGEOUS!!!
I so know how you feel. Last week I was so tired of the constantness of everything. Robert took me to Logan and we stayed over night at the Anniversary Inn for an early birthday present. The best part was waking up in the morning and not having to be the mom. It was so wonderful. I hope you can get a little break some time.
I'm glad you leave Cameron's famous sayings on your blog...they totally make my day. I hope to write up all the funny things McKinnley says once she gets going. And I totally know how you feel, it's exactly how I have been feeling the last 3 weeks, TOTALLY MOMMY EXHAUSTED! Of course I get a wake up call reminding me how blessed I am and that I need to be more grateful that Chris is willing to take on such a rigorous course load and I get to be at home all day with McKinnley. I'm sure glad to read someone else who goes through what I do sometimes. I loved this post.
I have two good friends here in Reno- both have four children. The difference is that my one friend's children are ALL exactly 5 years older than each of the other friends' children. My friend with the very young 4- boy is she busy!!! She is a bit down because the kids are into everything and it feels like her house will never be cleaned. She feels streteched to her limit. My other friend reminds her, EVERY DAY- things go fast!!! Reading, writing, sushi lunches with girlfriends- ALL OF THESE are going to happen!!! I promise! There will be time to read books and books and more books! There will be time to sit around and read everyone's blogs, and start and finish crafts! There WILL BE TIME! I SWEAR!!! I am at that point, because my youngest is 5- but I thought I would tell you about my friends (with the 4 kids each!) because this freedom is not exclusive to moms of few, no no- it is something that comes with age =) But truth be told... if I had known it would fly so quickly... I would have rocked those babies a heck of a lot more...
Sooooo happy for you!!! Even when you are busy- it will all be worth it in the end!!!! And I love that you know that! You are so positive!!!
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